Annoying, these alternative ideas

Your personality at least does not like it when he sees someone else do some exercises or meditate. Or living a life that he cannot explain or control

Why is that? Whenever he perceives someone doing these things, he immediately knows for sure and instinctively that the other person is doing something else than upholding the world of personalities that we mutually agreed upon. And it is very annoying to him to find out that someone is trying to escape. Especially when they should succeed in this, that would make your personality look pretty foolish..

Be not deceived, he can try to convince you that he is interested and wants to explore these things. But then immediately the next principle will be applied: search but do not find. So you may search a little, and then bring it under his immediate control: rules, standards, appointments. Thus giving it a status of his own, a mini-society with rules, do's and don'ts etc. And preferably you are to give this up after a while altogether.

For people who have to watch other people being in this process of becoming more aware of your inner Self, there is a wide variety of solutions to make sure that you will not be involved: labeling it as weird, closing your mind for this person or this part of it, collect "proof" against it, not speaking about it, etc.

Then why would you want to start with it in the first place? Your personality very much appreciates your habit of bringing new issues into your awareness and allowing him to take control over them. However, you can pick any moment in time to break this vicious circle. This may of course imply the risk that you will get stuck into it as you did in all other things in your life. But chances are also that this time it may lead to the thing that you really want deep within: remembering your inner Self.

Do allow your personality to express himself reasonably in every way that he wants. If you start to limit your personality, lay rules on him, etc., then rest assured that it will go the same way as before. As then you will not free your energy, but imprison it in new ways, which is likely to express itself sooner or later. The energy has to express itself. Let it happen, and no longer believe that it can bring you anything you really want. This is all that is necessary for a good start.