Why you keep on choosing for attack

Your personality believed that when he 'made' himself so to speak, this implied that he was able to successfully attack your inner Self, since this was now placed outside of your immediate awareness and he was able to have it stay that way (simply because your inner Self does not oppose this choice). Seen from the perspective of your personality, this now were to mean that the attack on your inner Self was successful, since it 'is no longer there'.

Still you realize somewhere within that you have (successfully) closed your mind on something, at least onto others (since your inner Self is the level where you are not completely separated). This makes you vulnerable, and a sense of weakness in comparison to others therefore is a basis experience. And since you believe that attack was successful (see the text above), you will repeat this mechanism in order to attempt to be as successful in getting rid of this feeling as well.

Now the good part is, that the more you remember your inner Self, the more clear it will become to you this attack you believed your personality carried out, was not successful at all. Your inner Self is still there, unassailed, in full glory. You only do not look at it. What your personality saw as a successful attack with which your inner Self had disappeared, turns out to be not true at all, it only was a quite extreme form of 'forgetfulness', nothing really happened, and it had no effect on your inner Self at all.

When you really grasp this idea, you will understand as well this insight will take away the basis for your urge to attack others - and the logic behind it -. Since it was not true in the first place, what you believed you had done did not have any real effect at all. The only thing you did, was to create the idea that it could bring you something, by closing your mind on everything else. And when there is no basis effect at all, this automatically dismisses the urge for all those attacks on others, since it turns out that you are not weaker at all, you are still in full your Self, unassailable, and on that level not separated from others.

The other side of the medal is made true though this mechanism as well: when somebody attacks you, then you automatically understand there is something in you they 'want to get rid of', and according to this mechanism, your personality assumes they have been successful in that becáuse they attack you. This automatically leaves you weakened, which in return is unpleasant, and so you attempt to use the same mechanism to get rid of this, and find yourself counterattacking. This will keep you busy for a while, and this is the unfulfilling feeling you always end up with after a round of mutual attack. It simply does not work.

Practically seen this also applies in those situations where others react in a way which does not support your personality, which used to increase your feeling of weakness and 'thus' automatically induced an attack. Now you understand that nobody else kan take away anything from you, everything that really matters is still within you in full.

Your personality also uses your body as a subject for 'counterattacks'. As long as you believe that an attack is justified (and want to strengthen your personality), you can imagine that the effects will remain as well in one form or another. For quite some time, your personality is likely to choose such a counter attack as a response, even against successful increase in awareness of your inner Self. However, when you face the personality thought which wants to reclaim what he believes is lost territory and therefore pushes your inner Self out of your awareness, and do not strengthen it, then this will sooner or later decrease in intensity, since you no longer keep on feeding the idea which caused it in the first place.