Fearing the consequences of being your Self

When you diminish your investments in your personality, you somehow know the empty space now available will be filled with something that personalities do not appreciate. Since it is something they continuously try to avoid, yours included. That is why part of you is afraid to move through this process and experience its consequences, because you know that what you are doing cannot be grasped by personalities, they cannot 'do' anything with it, they do not want to be involved in it, and such. Now this makes it seem like a conscious attempt to throw away what you believe is your own life, work, relations and such, since reasonably living up to personality expectations seemed the basis for your functioning.

Choosing for your inner Self is choosing to no longer strengthen your own, nor other people's personalities in as many situations as you allow yourself. And from experience with personalities you know that they do not like it when they are not strengthened, and are likely to come up with 'unpleasant' counteractions. Should you limit your focus of awareness to this mechanism, you would indeed be afraid to move on. However, this idea is firmly rooted in your beliefs and you are likely to encounter it regularly, so get used to facing this, and remember this is not a truth in itself.

When you realize that when you strengthen remembrance of your inner Self in yourself, this automatically makes it more easily available for other people as well, then you can recognize this is not about a battle for power between personalities with all unpleasant consequences involved. This is not about personalities at all, it is about Self. And as well as you can strengthen each others' personality, you can do likewise on the level of your inner Selves. So your 'gift' to yourself of being your Self is now likewise available for the other person as well (even though he will realize this to the extent to which he allows himself only, however, for other people there already can be found great relief in experiencing not being strengthened in his personality in this way).

By the way, you need not worry, the alternative of' not living up to personality expectations is not the opposite, like you were to be 'weird' or such, you will notice that even seen from the perspective of others, it is much more normal, peaceful and logical than your personality likes you to believe (in order to preserve himself!).