Deserve something

Your personality uses a kind of bookkeeping, like: when I have worked hard enough or done this or that, or endured this, then I deserve this or that: a break, the love of a person, attention, a beer, etc. For a start, here your personality focuses on the form which a certain experience should take: the break offers you a feeling of peace, someone's' attention gives you a gut feeling, etc. Also, he more or less justifies that you will not experience this feeling untíl you have reached that moment in time. Check for yourself: until you have reached the point where you believe you have deserved it, you are not even really open to the idea itself.

So this is a way of depriving yourself twice of what you could have experienced continuously when you would not have chosen this: inner Peace. So it is a very efficient personality way to allow the reward to be an experience you like, only making it conditional, based on something in which your personality was first able to fully express himself.

Inner Peace is already there, you need not deserve it, only remember it. You need neither special situations nor some kind of permission to experience it. The question you should ask yourself therefore, is: am I prepared to let go of all these judgments, limitations and prerequisites which I myself have put in the way of remembering this continuous experience?