Do NOT look within

When you start to practice this way of looking at yourself, you may notice that there is something within you that tells you to not look within. There you would encounter something "dark" and "black" and uncontrollable and scary, and that is not a thing you want to start looking for. You better stay on the road that you are familiar with and which is accepted by the world as you know it. Maybe it does not bring you as much fun as you hoped, but at least it will not call forth feelings like panic and such.

Your personality, who brings these thoughts into your awareness, is partly right here. As what you will find when you start to look within, is the end of your personality, through remembering your inner Self. And your inner Self cannot be controlled by your personality. You may find that your personality has to come up with some pretty heavy stuff in order to prevent you from focusing your attention on anything but him.

The only thing that your personality is really doing, is trying to prevent you from looking within by making the perspective very unattractive, and has it accompanied by some very unpleasant feelings, thus hoping that you will change your mind. Now this does not mean that you should not look within. Neither does it mean that these feelings that your personality comes up with, are a truth in themselves, nor that it should be a very unpleasant experience when you bring your attention inward. As you will find that when you move through these fears, beneath them is the gift that you were looking for all the while.

So move on, step by step, at a pace that suits you, and start looking for the remembrance of your inner Self. Be not surprised that your personality will have you experience this kind of unpleasant experiences every now and then. Now you know that they do not have a power in themselves, you may find it much easier to look at them and moving through them without entertaining the thoughts, or strengthening them, or labeling them as true. Thus you will move on, and come each day a little closer.