Fool yourself

Your whole life your personality was allowed to use everything that came to your awareness for its own good, thus strengthening himself and his worldview. So it should come as no surprise to you when you notice that he is about to do the same with the ideas that you will get, a.o. from this site. It is your standard pattern of dealing with it.

The things that you offer yourself for inspiration for an extra dimension, he will twist in such a way that it fits into his worldview and that it can be used under his supervision. So he is likely to mess up the ideas of your inner Self with those of your thoughts. HE can substitute letting go with dissociation. He is likely to label forgiveness as a process in which his needs are not met. Not doing an exercise or applying an idea is likely to call forth feelings of guilt and failure. Etc. Before you know it, you have used these ideas to strengthen your personality, be it through a workaround.

You will have to do something extra to break this vicious circle: become aware. Your inner Self can be found in the absence of your personality, so he cannot know what is is or how things will be when he does not control a situation. That is why it will take a lot of trust, especially in the beginning, in order to make a start with this. The other columns here on the site can help you with tips and inspiration. BEcourses can do the same on a daily basis.