Hiding something or bringing it out of sight

One of the many options your personality can use is, to try to hide something for someone. Either literally, by covering it up, or as a matter of speaking, by not letting it show or not telling it for example.

When you hide something, you uphold the original thing or issue, only you do not share it with others. So this automatically means it is not out of your life. This applies to physical things as well as relations and mental issues.

Your personality has a tremendous amount of judgments, ideas, standards and values at hand. You are likely to find yourself regularly in situations where you are not appreciated, you are ashamed of something, you fear the reaction of others, you do something that is 'not allowed', etc. Now you have two options, roughly spoken: you can either choose to simply "act it out", confront others with it and accept the consequences, or you can uphold your original ideas and intentions within your own mind, yet choose to not (fully) express these in front of others, or not express them to people who are directly involved, or to cover them up physically. This is hiding and covering up in optima forma, and this aims at upholding the worldview of your personality at full strength without having to put too much energy into dealing with confrontations.

Now you may not be too surprised to find out that an approach like this will cause tension within yourself. Since you still experience the unpleasant consequences of your original interpretation of a certain situation, you have only chosen to try to attempt to diminish the tension that is likely to follow by limiting the amount of external input through not or not fully expressing yourself.

There is also a risk of being uncovered, since you will never fully succeed in playing this game without anyone noticing. So you are likely to find yourself being suspicious on these issues, which automatically usurps part of your attention span, energy and peace of mind. You will also interpret what other people say or do against these hidden and unexpressed ideas of yours, which may lead you even further away from a sane way of dealing with the situation.

Feeling guilty is a very familiar aspect of this process of hiding or putting away. Since you know that you are hiding something and you are aware that kind of behaviour will not give you bonus points, but also because the reason why you are hiding in the first place, involves rejection through others and expected unpleasantness to follow from that. So actually this is now double trouble.

Furthermore, you have to remember all this in order to be able to project it onto future situations and repeat this kind of response. So you keep your references up-to-date and find yourself checking whether or not to apply them onto each situation or not. This too asks for quite a big part of your attention span, energy and your experiences.

So what was at first considered a fast and easy way to deal with a situation only to bring you a relative quiet response, turns out to be far less innocent than you could have imagined in the first place. Hiding and all the attention you give to this, nurtures the original interpretation of your personality in all cases, thus strengthening it and upholding it. There are variations on this theme, like making things look better than they are, twisting and changing, not being straightforward, not telling, wanting to protect someone etc., however, they all come down to the same point in the end.

Your alternative can be found in facing what is happening as described above, find out what it is that you are really creating, and deciding that hiding is not a behaviour you want to continue, no matter how unpleasant, embarrassing or annoying it may get (since these too are personality interpretations only). Become aware of the thought patterns your personality is entertaining by dealing with these issues in this way, and which thoughts you use to justify yourself. Now this does not automatically mean that from now on you will always express yourself or will not repeat these patterns, you will find that out in time. But what you do change is the intention with which you enter the situation and deal with it. For a start you can become aware of what is going on and what your personality is actually doing here. Then invite your inner Self to deal with this and offer you inspiration to use this for increasing awareness of óther aspects within you.