Striving for the ideal picture

It would be very nice for your personality when an ideal picture were possible: ultimately, it turns out to be true what he wanted you to believe all the time: it ís nice and perfect here, without unpleasant side-effects, at least in this particular situation, at this moment in time. What is the attraction to your personality of an ideal picture? The more ideal the picture, the less doubt and unpleasantness there is for you, and when it would be possible altogether, it would prove that it were possible in itself to be 'happy' here in his way, which would mean you would stay interested in his way of looking at the world. No wonder your personality is willing to put energy in this, and keeps on telling you that it should be possible. Practically, this brings you in a quite restless state of mind, and an endless search for something different and better, and a great amount of unhappiness with your present situation, which obviously is nót ideal.

There is no doubt about the 'better' aspect, only when it comes to where and how to find it, you will find your personality and your inner Self diametrically opposed. For a start, it is much more convenient to start looking for a different way to deal with imperfectness, since that will continue to be your everyday reality, and the unavoidable result of the mechanism of judgment and interpreting your personality upholds. So no longer walk away from the unpleasant interpretations of your personality while assuming that when you would be able to change the ínput, the óutput some day would be ... Dare to face the personality mechanism itself and do realize there is an alternative. The experience that you are really looking for, can never be found through the personality mechanism, because that is the intense Peaceful and familiar experience of your inner Self. Now thát you find, as you can read in many of the columns on this site, through letting go of your investment in your personality and not filling the mental space which is thus made available with other personality stuff but allowing your inner Self to enter. So no longer not settle for the ultra short moments of seemingly fun your personality hopes to offer, more and more choose the all-encompassing continuing experience of your inner Self.