Intense feelings

Do not be surprised when you are going to experience intense feelings when you become more aware of your inner Self, especially when it is time to really make a change. Your personality does notice that his grip on your attention is loosening, and he has an immense variety of tricks to try to win you back for himself.

A few examples:

- fear
- you are becoming crazy
- you will not make it in this world without your personality
- panic
- loneliness
- sadness
- anger
- withdrawal
- getting stuck, feeling like walking into a wall

By the way, these are all variations on the same old theme: your personality tries to get your attention. Nothing more. And nothing less. He wants to be in control. And he uses the things on this list to advertise why you should not even think about strengthening your inner Self, because thát would cause this kind of feelings. What he makes you forget, is that he himself is the cause of these feelings, not your inner Self. It is something like hitting yourself and then screaming that it hurts. What all situations on the list have in common, is that the standard reactions for "normal" situations no longer seem to work here.

And still, these feelings are only temporary. They will pass. Do not fight them. It is not right or wrong to experience them, it is simply part of the process. Be aware of what happens. And bring your attention inward, to your inner Self, while you live through this flood of thoughts, tensions and probably bodily unpleasantness that accompanies it. For example, focus your attention on your breath, not because you can find a solution in it, but simply because it takes your focus away from your head and all its thoughts.

Also afterwards, when your personality wants to use the memory of what you just went through to try to make up a bunch of guidelines how to avoid situations like that in the future: bring your attention inward. This are normal and yet necessary steps along the way to remembering your inner Self. The more intense the feelings, the bigger the step forward you are likely to make, let that be your inspiration to stick to your determination to remember and make place for your inner Self during these difficult moments.

By the way, do not force yourself through this kind of emotions, let it come natural and allow yourself to have "safe places" and "safe moments" where your personality can recover and entertain the idea that it can be fun looking through his eyes, whatever he may consider to be "fun". For example through watching tv, or taking a sleeping pill, or alcohol, or go on a date, spend time with your computer, whatever. That too is a necessary part of the process, and be confident that once you started on this path of remembering, you cannot miss the necessary steps along the way, in a way and as quickly as is natural for you.