Why you do nót want to live in the moment NOW

You may recognize this: when you are washing dishes, you think of all kinds of other things. When you are eating breakfast, your mind already wanders off to the first meeting of the day or your to-do list. Etc. This no doubt will increase your experience of being busy all the time, since thus you are always on your way and yet never truly experience that you have arrived as well. You may have read more than once that living in the moment were to be a solution to that. Then why do you not do so?

To your personality, all this thinking has at least two practical advantages: at first you do not really experience the moment itself, and so you will not find out that easily that he cannot actually make it very nice for you at the moment itself, which is likely to be experienced as quite boring, and/or your thoughts prevent you from having to face that your personality would have come up with all kinds of unpleasant reactions to what is happening in the moment at that time (or does not happen). The second practical advantage is, that in this way you uphold the idea that your personality hás to come up with all kinds of things in order to make your life work for you, and that he is the factor which 'makes' your life. Let alone the need he has for rethinking all kinds of situations in order to make them safe and/or working for him.

You could equal thinking and personality, ask yourself: when you do not think, where is your personality then - and do you believe he likes that ;-) ? You fear to see what is in the moment NOW, because there you will face the ultimate powerlessness of your personality, and it is the only place where you will - and can choose to face and undo your personality. So your personality is likely to heavily invest in avoiding this moment and make you believe his thinking and actions are very necessary and worth while.

To break this vicious circle, you will have to be prepared to face the unpleasant feelings that you no doubt will experience in the moment NOW. When you were only to use these in order to act out your standard personality response, like irritation, anger, rage, fear or such, you will soon stop with this, since then it only will bring you unpleasant experiences. However, when you intend to use these as a way of becoming aware of the role of your personality and facing that this is what personalities do, however it turns out to be not what you are really looking for, then it is likely to still be an unpleasant experience, however one which will contribute to your process of increasing Awareness. There is an alternative to the experiences your personality offers, however, he prefers that you forget this, since it will go at his expense.

By simply daring to face what it is that is really happening, truly face the fact that your personality cannot make it work, you will break the vicious circle. Yes, your personality cannot make this work. Period. Let it go, he no longer has to. And when you dare to not fill the mental space which is thus made available with new personality stuff, it is there for your inner Self to fill effortlessly.