Questions to your personality

Let's assume for a moment that today you will be awake for sixteen hours. When you have about twenty thoughts a minute, then today you will have had some twenty thousand thoughts. This is all personality stuff, and something you do so intensely, must have a certain function. So I invite you to take a closer look at this. Make for yourself the following calculation, based on time:

- how much time have you spent on your looks. How many thoughts (and numbers should be mentioned here ;-) ) have you spent while you were working on it, and checking the reactions of others - and/or react to others (and their looks). And what has this brought you today, write this down very specifically.
- how much time have you spent on traveling. How many thoughts have you had while doing so. How much time did you have left to experience the moment itself - or why have you been so busy avoiding this experience. So: what has your experience of traveling actually been.
- how much time have you spent on entertainment. How many thoughts did you have before, during and after the entertainment. And what has it really brought you. How soon did the pleasant feeling disappear after you stopped, specifically mention the amount of time.
- how much time have you spent on attempting to be right, thinking about your being right, thinking of others who do not want to tell you you are right or confirm you in that. How many thoughts have this roughly been, a thousand? And how many of these have really brought you any further?
- do the same thing for feelings of safety, irritation and being 'good'.

Now you can read this column and think 'yes, this is so', however, when you write it down for yourself at least once, you will notice that it has a much greater impact, simply because it is then very clear how this works in yoúr situation. Since your personality will be the first to state 'yes yes, I know this kind of math, it is 'much' and then let you continue in the old familiar way, labeling this as a pleasant intermezzo. He has now played it safe once again, you will not put any more effort in questioning his activities.

And you can extend this exercise to all the aspects which have colored your day today, and take a closer look at them. Truly ask yourself what is so great about it. This question is legitimate, since when you take a really close look at it, you will have a hard time in finding something really 'good'. You have thought twenty thousand thoughts today. And why? You have a choice, since you do this yourself. That is has become a habit, does not mean that it is not a choice. Do you want to keep on continuing this, or to you want to use this to 'change your mind'?

The alternative can be found in facing what it really is that you are doing, and recognizing that you rather give your attention to something else - and nót by rejecting or suppressing the personality process. You do not do these things for nothing, as you may read in many of the other columns on the site in order to understand more of this. Only you use for this the same focus of attention which you could also use for something else, so when you reject or deny the focus itself, what would be left for you to experience this 'other thing' with? Not to mention the fact that anything you suppress is likely to become a time bomb, since this is always accompanied by tension and forcing.

Seen from the perspective of your inner Self, not óne of these thoughts were necessary. You had known what to do at the right time (and 'knowing' is not a thought), and that's it, that is all you really need, since you would have known that it is good the way it is, so you would not have to relive the situation over and over again, doubt etc. And all that time would then have been available to experience your inner Self in full.