Relief

Your personality has been taught to associate 'being yourself' with the self image he himself has made for you, which in itself is logical. Now usually nobody moves through life without being hurt, and so your personality has heard or interpreted many times this 'self' really is not worth while, there are all kinds of things wrong with it, etc. On top of that, for your personality your Self is wrong as well, simply because it stands for everything he himself is not.

You are likely to get unpleasant experiences because of all this when you enter the process of increasing Awareness, since you host a mechanism within you which now says that somewhat everything that comes out of 'you' is wrong. So no matter how you twist and turn things, to your personality, being yourself is a risky business. It therefore comes as a joyous relief once you truly recognize:

You no longer have to defend yourself against your inner Self
You no longer have to be afraid to be your Self
You no longer have to hide your Self
You no longer have to be embarrassed when you are your Self
You no longer have to attack your Self
Being your Self is not daring
You no longer have to distract your attention away from your Self
It is not wrong when you are your Self
It is not wrong to Be
All those judgments of other people were not 'true' in themselves
You no longer have to present yourself as 'normal' (weaker)
Etc.