Being special and growing awareness

Wanting to be special, means wanting to be alone and separated, and is at the center of your personality. One of the best tricks from your personality with regard to the issue of specialness, is to use the ideas like you find here on this site for it. When he cannot avoid to work with you in the process of awareness and letting go, there is one last refuge for him: use this process for regaining strength.

How can you recognize that your personality is doing this? You may find for example that your personality judges it to be unpleasant having to notice that other people are going through a likewise process, especially when they are successful in it (since according to the 'laws" of your personality, when someone else is successful, this is seen as a direct attack on himself because it would mean he "thus" is less). Your personality states that the way through which you remember more about your inner Self works for you, and THUS is the ultimate way to do this. Of course you will hear him say that it is possible that other ways can work as well, however, SINCE these do not work for him, in his opinion they can never be as good and efficient. Your personality also believes that nobody can be as successful in this as you are at this moment. And, last but not least, before you know it, he adopts this to be his ideas, and he can then use them for his games of scarcity, possession, more/less etc.

Your personality conveniently overlooks that this process is only about which words were used and what did they call forth in you, or whatever input it was through which you allowed yourself to let go of some of the limitations that you have imposed upon yourself through your personality. For the one person, detailed insights work best, for another person this does not work at all, and inspiration comes during walks, meditation, sports etc. However, your personality rather looks at the possible misinterpretations that he can use this for, and the label "wrong" that he then can assign to it (which makes him automatically "good" again). Your personality usually sees these things in the light of how they are applied into your life only, and what it calls forth in him, and most of the things literally do not work for him. However, this does not say anything about the potential in any situation to use it for remembrance. The only distinction you could make is whether or not the road you are on seems to be the most direct and complete one, and the outcome still does not mean that these qualifications make it the most suitable way for everybody.

By keeping this process special, your personality prevents these ideas from spreading any further. Also not recognizing or acknowledging it in other people, makes it possible for him to present this as an isolated experience, limited to you only, which is not strengthened through sharing it with other people, nor through seeing or valuing it in them.

Ultimately it is all about how you use it yourself, and what for. You cannot know what someone is learning and experiencing in a situation which is labeled "wrong" by your personality. What you can know is what you yourself use it for: either to reinforce specialness and separation on your mind, or to remember the opposite in yourself and the other person involved, and welcome any glimpse of Being. Your personality believes that should he acknowledge this in other people, he will lose his special status, which is "wrong". And since your personality always reacts first, you will have to put extra effort in it to call forth this advanced interpretation.

Remember: when you are an inner Self with a neutral body which performs neutral actions which are only interpreted for personality use only, then someone else is the same. What your personality allows you to do, is to let things go within yourself, but he keeps projecting it onto other people, more or less subtle, be it by labeling them "wrong" based on the limited perception through your senses of movements and sounds made by other people, which he then interprets and never can make an inner Self out of it or recognize it through this. You will be able to find the inner Self when you no longer let yourself be distracted by this input.