Time

For many people these days time has become a rare thing. We do structure the time at hand through appointments, pieces of time in which we agree to do something or to be with someone, or to receive a visit from someone. And this is the interesting part for your personality, as it is a specific thing now, on which all kinds of things can be projected.

Let's take a look at what happens when, for example, you are about to keep an appointment, like when you have to start your work at nine o'clock. From the moment that you open your eyes in the morning until you are at work, it is likely that your personality uses a lot of time to make sure that you are still on schedule, and checks and decides where adjustments have to be made.

You have some unwritten moments in time where you know whether you are on schedule or not. The moment that you get out of bed. The time at which you start eating your breakfast. The moment in which you step into your car. Meanwhile you are likely to make adjustments in your schedule, usually because you have to speed up: you will eat faster, driver faster, will say goodbye to your spouse while your mind is already focused on possible obstructions during your ride to work, etc.

This process is likely to continue all through the day: while you are in one meeting, you are already checking whether you are going to be in time for the next one. As a society, we put a penalty on being late, thus extra reinforcing these patterns.

Mmm, it seems that you spend only very limited time on being aware in the moment itself, which by the way is not a thing that your personality is interested in, as that is the only moment in time where he is out of work. His power comes from judging the past, and anticipating the future, and coming up with all kinds of things to make sure that everything is going to your liking.

Your personality feels very comfortable when he can control things. That is why he loves full schedules, as they guarantee all kinds of possibilities to act out and reestablish his power over you, even though he may grump every now and then that it is too much for him, be not confused, that is only for form's sake.

Same applies for doing chores and carrying out activities: these have to be planned, prioritized. You can start to worry that something may come up that interferes with these plans, you are now open to judgment through others that you may not be finished in time, this has to be prevented, etc. And while carrying out your job, you may check continuously on how to do it more efficient, better etc. These are all ways in which your personality reinforces himself.

Now the question should be: how can this be changed? As appointments and chores will be aspects of your life when you are in this world, you can learn to handle them in a different way: by changing the intention with which you live your life. Let input and action be inspired by your inner Self. There is enough wisdom there to be able to live your life without the continuous monitoring and control of your personality, thus living your day from a new perspective.

This does not mean that you will always be on time, or that you will have finished all your jobs in time. Or that you now only choose the nicest of meetings. But what it does bring you, is remembering how it is to be consciously aware in the moment itself. And that is the only thing in time where you can really and consciously experience things. So you change the quality of your awareness. This is of course not an overnight job, but every time that you make this choice for your inner Self, you are making space for this aspect of you, thus enabling it to increase your awareness of it and to express itself through you. And changes will occur naturally from this process, thus allowing you to live through your day and its activities in a way that you will like very much, and which will no longer increase tension.

For good orders' sake: your personality will not like this. And as he is the aspect of you that is in charge of your feelings, it is likely that whenever you are living more in the present, he will make you experience unpleasant feelings. Do not be afraid of that, be consciously aware of them as long as is good for you. And do not overdo this, you have come a long way in which you strengthened your personality, now allow yourself to take your time to get used to letting it go.