Tired

Too tired to even start with the day. Exhausted during the day. Tired at the end of the day. And by this I do not mean "normally tired", but extensive, mental tiredness. A lot of people have to deal with this.

Now do you really believe it is an unexpected outcome? Look at the things you put your energy in during the day: you protect the thought system of your personality like your life depends on it. His ideas on how to run your household, what your partner should do, how your boss and colleagues should react, their perceived attacks on you, he has an opinion on everyone and everything, as a result attacks yourself or others, or defends himself. Your personality puts a lot of effort in all this, be it by speaking out loud or through thinking. And it even does not bring you many pleasant experiences.

Have you ever considered how much effort and energy it takes to uphold your worldview? To make, guard and protect all your boundaries and rules. To make sure your make-believe needs are met? To shape a "world". And why, what did it bring you so far. Is it so much nicer now?

What would happen if you simply stopped doing that? You would have an excessive amount of energy at hand. For what? For Being. Boring? To your personality, yes. For your Self it is a warm feeling of coming home. And it is either the one or the other. You either look through the vision of your personality. or through that of your inner Self. There is no road in between, because they are two different aspects that cannot be reconciled because of their origin (which is separation in the first place).

Now what is described here, is what personalities do, so this means that you are not alone in this and, if you wish, can comfortably rest in the idea that it is "normal" what you are doing. Okay, maybe you suffer a bit more than others, but you can read everywhere that everybody does this, and you can start looking for some incidental relief solutions. But should youno longer like that, when it no longer brings you what you really want, then you can start to look around here on the site. For inspiration about a different approach. One that only asks awareness, a conscious choice to no longer strengthen the patterns of your personality. Which allows you to remember who and how you really are. You are not the vague cluster of standards, values, rules and ideas that is continuously attacked, threatened, has to change etc. But your inheritance is a peaceful, quiet, bright, open and creative state of mind, simply because you no longer put your efforts in preventing yourself from experiencing this.